First-Time Ayahuasca Report



Table of Contents


  • Introduction
    • Background
    • Purpose of the Report
  • Preparation
    • Choosing the Consumption Method
    • Timing and Dosage
  • The Trip Experience
    • T+00:00 – Consumption of Harmala Seeds
    • T+10-15 Min – Consumption of Mimosa Hostilis
    • T+20 Min – Initial Effects
    • T+35 Min – Relaxation and Light Distortions
    • T+45 Min – Increased Effects and Visuals
    • T+55 Min – Purging Attempts and Realities
    • T+1 Hour 25 Min – Mental Clarity and Reflections
  • Reflections and Conclusion
    • Insights Gained During the Experience
    • How This Experience Shaped My Views



Introduction


Background


This report is a detailed account of my first experience with Ayahuasca, a psychoactive brew made from the combination of plants such as Mimosa Hostilis and Harmala seeds. I approached this experience as a beginner with minimal experience in psychoactive substances, having only previously experimented with cannabis and nitrous oxide. My history with these substances has been limited, so I wasn’t accustomed to intense or mind-altering trips that more seasoned users might have encountered.


Additionally, I had tried Harmala (a key component of the brew) combined with cannabis prior to this experience, but the effects weren’t entirely clear to me, and I wasn't certain what, if anything, I was feeling at the time. Given my inexperience, I was curious about whether this unfamiliarity would make me more sensitive to the effects of psychoactive substances, or perhaps less sensitive due to my lack of exposure to such intense experiences.


Purpose of the Report


This report combines my reflections during the trip with instant messages I sent to a close friend at the time, edited for clarity. The timestamps provided are approximate and may not be entirely accurate. I should also note that the insights and feelings shared in this report are based on my immediate experience and are subject to revision. Since this initial experience, I’ve had additional sessions that have given me more time to reflect and revise my views, which I’ll explore further in future writings.



Preparation


Choosing the Consumption Method


I chose to consume the Harmala seeds and Mimosa Hostilis (the source of DMT) in their finely ground form, rather than preparing a tea. My reasoning was that I believed ingesting the ground substances would allow me to receive all of the active compounds without the risk of losing any during the extraction process, which might happen if the tea wasn't filtered thoroughly. I also felt confident in my ability to handle the taste and potential discomfort.


Timing and Dosage


I took 2 grams of finely ground Harmala seeds with orange juice, which wasn’t as unpleasant as I expected, although the taste was intense and required quick swallowing to avoid lingering bitterness. There was a slight aftertaste, but I found it neutral, or even faintly pleasant.


After waiting 10-15 minutes to allow the Harmala to activate, I took 1 gram of finely ground Mimosa Hostilis. The powder from the Hostilis was much more difficult to swallow as it stuck to my tongue and the roof of my mouth, though I found it manageable thanks to the juice I drank. Despite a bit of nervousness, I wasn’t overly worried about the low dose.



The Trip Experience


T+00:00 – Consumption of Harmala Seeds


The experience began when I consumed 2 grams of finely ground Harmala seeds with orange juice. The taste was more tolerable than expected, though intense, requiring me to swallow quickly. There was a faint aftertaste, which I found surprisingly neutral, even slightly pleasant.


T+10-15 Min – Consumption of Mimosa Hostilis


After 10-15 minutes, I consumed 1 gram of finely ground Mimosa Hostilis powder. The taste was less enjoyable compared to the Harmala, as the powder acted more like flour and stuck to the roof of my mouth. The taste was unpleasant but bearable with the help of the juice. At this point, I began to feel the weight of the experience settling in and started to feel nervous, though I reassured myself that the dose was low and manageable.


T+20 Min – Initial Effects


Around the 20-minute mark, I began feeling the effects of the substances. The typical fogginess of my mind seemed lighter, and my thoughts felt clearer than usual. This could have been the onset of the Harmala effects, or it could have been a product of my own imagination. I wasn’t sure, but I began to notice a subtle shift in perception.


T+35 Min – Relaxation and Light Distortions


By 35 minutes, I felt very relaxed. My body seemed to be telling me to lie down and rest, as everything, including visual stimuli and sounds, became slightly overwhelming. I had a brief moment where I lost my balance but quickly regained it. My body’s desire for rest became stronger, and I was starting to notice subtle movements in my peripheral vision.


T+45 Min – Increased Effects and Visuals


At the 45-minute mark, the effects became more pronounced. My thoughts began to drift, and I started seeing slight visual distortions, such as movement in my peripheral vision. My body continued urging me to lie down. At the same time, I felt slight nausea, which was to be expected.


In an attempt to focus and ground myself, I went to the bathroom, but my thoughts became more erratic. The bathroom floor patterns seemed to shift and move like waves on the ocean. My thoughts were becoming harder to hold onto, as if I was constantly drifting into new, random thoughts. Time itself felt warped, as if it had slowed or ceased to matter. I found myself thinking that time was no longer relevant in the grand scheme of things. Despite the discomfort, I felt drawn to lie down and focus on the experience.


T+55 Min – Purging Attempts and Realities


At the 55-minute mark, I started having more intense visions whenever I closed my eyes. These visions involved intricate geometric patterns and clockwork-like spinning gears, with animals slithering between them. I was also drifting in and out of what felt like alternate realities.


I went to the bathroom again, hoping to purge. As I sat there with my head near the WC, I experienced a deep sense of connection to various realities, which felt far more vivid than simple visual experiences. These realities were often filled with fractals, each of them containing an empty circle in the middle. Some of these "realities" were so strange that they were difficult to describe. I recall one moment when I felt connected to a mother and daughter near a ski slope, but I didn’t know how I was aware of them, and I knew they weren’t people I had ever met.


Despite feeling the overwhelming urge to purge, I never actually did. My body reacted as if purging was crucial, as though the meaning of existence was to rid myself of the discomfort caused by nausea. However, I was unable to relieve myself of this sensation.


T+1 Hour 25 Min – Mental Clarity and Reflections


By 1 hour and 25 minutes, I was fully immersed in the experience. My connection to the external world remained, but it required little effort to let go and drift into the alternate realities. I felt a sense of heightened mental clarity. Thoughts flowed easily, and I could focus sharply on them if I chose. The sensation was very different from the mental state induced by cannabis, and I found myself able to distinguish easily between my thoughts and the external world.


This reality—my everyday life—began to feel insignificant in comparison to the strange, vivid worlds I was exploring. Everything around me seemed like a fleeting interaction, much like people walking past me on the street. The experience, though intensely overwhelming, was also deeply beautiful.



Reflections and Conclusion


Insights Gained During the Experience


The experience was profound and brought about an overwhelming sense of connection to various alternate realities, each with their own rules and structures. These realities weren’t just visual; they were rich with emotional and psychological depth, at times even evoking memories and feelings tied to places and people I had never met. The beauty and complexity of these worlds gave me a sense of awe and wonder.


How This Experience Shaped My Views


This session with Ayahuasca opened my eyes to the idea that perception and reality are far more fluid and subjective than I had ever imagined. While some of the details of the experience may not make sense now, I cannot deny the intense emotional resonance and clarity it provided. Moving forward, I plan to reflect further on this experience and explore how these revelations might alter my approach to life and consciousness.


Though this was just the beginning, it has already had a lasting impact on how I view my own mind, my life, and my place in the world.