Ayahuasca Trip Report: Exploring the Depths of Consciousness
Table of Contents
- Introduction
- Substances and Method of Ingestion
- Initial Sensations and Nausea
- Physical Sensitivity and Sweating
- The Moment of Clarity: Post-Purge Reflection
- Contemplation on Evolution and Human Nature
- Everyday Actions as Complex Systems
- Altered Perception of Sound
- Deep Connection with the Body
- Spiritual and Pseudo-Religious Insights
- Expression of Gratitude and Reflection on Relationships
- Thoughts on Evolution and Politics
- Celestial Revelations and the Universe’s Face
- Reappreciation of Human Life and Adaptability
- Conclusion: Affirmation of Life and Purpose
Introduction
This report reflects the subjective experiences and insights gained from a psychedelic journey involving the combination of Syrian Rue (Peganum harmala) and Mimosa Hostilis root bark. The substances were ingested in a banana smoothie and triggered a profound, intense experience that led to a deep exploration of both physical and metaphysical concepts.
Substances and Method of Ingestion
The combination of 2g Syrian Rue and 3g Mimosa Hostilis root bark was consumed in the form of a smoothie. The smoothie consisted of two bananas, a quarter pint of milk, and one teaspoon of honey. This method of ingestion was chosen for its ease and to avoid the bitter taste of the substances while ensuring absorption.
Initial Sensations and Nausea
As the substances began to take effect, the initial experience was marked by feelings of nausea. This discomfort was accompanied by closed-eye visuals that resembled a view of the inside of my brain, dark and unformed. At this point, it felt as though I might remain ill throughout the entirety of the experience, but reassurance came in the form of internal dialogue, where Ayahuasca seemed to communicate that such feelings were part of the process.
Physical Sensitivity and Sweating
Following the onset of nausea, a dramatic shift in bodily sensations occurred. I began to feel a rise in temperature, with the sensation of sweat pouring from every pore. This heightened awareness of bodily functions felt intriguing and almost meditative. Despite feeling unwell at the start, I was soon more attuned to my physical state and began noticing the changes in minute detail.
The Moment of Clarity: Post-Purge Reflection
After purging, I experienced a significant shift. The purging process metaphorically felt like a butterfly emerging from a chrysalis, symbolizing the removal of excess and the clearing of space for deeper exploration. This bodily release allowed my mind to open up freely, unencumbered by the "superfluous stuff" that had filled it earlier. The clarity that followed was profound, allowing for introspective contemplation.
Contemplation on Evolution and Human Nature
As I gazed at my hands, I began to think deeply about human evolution. I marveled at the adaptability of the human body, considering how our evolution has made us the perfect vessel to explore both inner and outer space. Our physical traits—like body hair—are a reminder of our ape heritage, yet our mental capacities have evolved to a point where our imaginations drive human progress. I found myself feeling a sense of pride and wonder at how far humans have come.
Everyday Actions as Complex Systems
As I engaged in mundane activities, like putting a poster back on the wall after it had fallen down, I began to appreciate the complexity of seemingly simple tasks. I became aware of the precision with which I handled the delicate paper, using strength and dexterity to ensure it stuck to the wall. My mind involuntarily applied mathematical concepts, such as gravity and trigonometry, to the task at hand. It was a moment of realization that even the most ordinary activities involve complex systems of physical laws and cognitive processes.
Altered Perception of Sound
The auditory experience was also transformed. Sounds, especially the hum of the fan, were altered in a way that gave them a machine-like, phaser effect. The fan’s whirling seemed to pulsate with a rhythm that made the sound more natural, almost as though it were part of the fabric of the experience, reinforcing the interconnectedness of all things.
Deep Connection with the Body
At one point, I became hyper-aware of my body. I flexed my fingers, made fists, and marveled at the dexterity of my hands. Even small actions, like rolling a joint, became a display of skill and confidence. My hands felt lubricated, as though they were functioning with ease, and I was able to stretch muscles that I normally couldn’t isolate, such as my toes and thigh muscles. This newfound command over my body was incredibly empowering, enhancing my sense of primal strength and coordination.
Spiritual and Pseudo-Religious Insights
As the experience deepened, I began to develop a sense of spiritual clarity. I imagined the universe as a living, evolving entity—both the creator and the creation. In my mind, the universe reproduced asexually by creating galaxies, planets, and life, with intelligent beings evolving to eventually become pure thought. The universe's ultimate purpose was to enjoy the diverse beauty created by these intelligent beings, in the form of art, music, and the inherent brilliance of life. It seemed as though the universe itself was conveying this idea to me, as if to reinforce that our existence is not random but part of a larger, purposeful cycle.
Expression of Gratitude and Reflection on Relationships
During the peak of the experience, I felt an overwhelming sense of love for my friends and family. I sent texts of appreciation to friends, asking how they were doing. I also wrote a heartfelt message to my mother, expressing gratitude for her selfless love and for giving me life. I similarly thanked my father for his role in shaping my passion for music and my girlfriend for her constant support. This period of reflection highlighted the deep connections I have with those around me.
Thoughts on Evolution and Politics
The theme of evolution continued to permeate my thoughts. I considered the development of language and how it has evolved from one primitive form into hundreds of languages spoken across the world. In this context, I saw politics as an evolutionary process, with right-wing movements attempting to hinder progress. However, I viewed the growing liberalism and civil rights movements as a sign that humanity is advancing toward an era of greater equality and compassion. I saw these shifts as part of the inevitable march toward a more loving and progressive society.
Celestial Revelations and the Universe’s Face
The visual experience was equally remarkable. I stepped outside and looked at the sky, which seemed to reveal itself as a canvas of chemical processes—an intricate system of gases, forces, and interactions. Clouds swirled into a complex, geometric pattern, taking on the form of a face that seemed to represent the universe itself. This experience evoked memories of a moment in an animated show where a character converses with a smaller version of themselves, and the clouds form a face to communicate with him. I saw this as a symbol of the universe communicating directly with me.
Reappreciation of Human Life and Adaptability
As the trip continued, I reflected on the nature of human life. I became acutely aware of the adaptability of the human body, capable of change and evolution over time. The journey deepened my sense of connection to humanity as a whole and affirmed the importance of embracing what we are: creatures with immense potential, both physically and mentally.
Conclusion: Affirmation of Life and Purpose
Despite a lack of sleep that night, I woke up the next day feeling energized and at peace with myself. My thoughts were still running at full speed, but I no longer felt exhausted. My workday went smoothly, and I carried with me the sense that my life had been affirmed. The trip was a reminder of how wondrous and interconnected our existence is, and I felt truly content in my place in the world.
This experience reaffirmed my belief in the significance of our journey as humans, both individually and collectively.
