A Terrifying LSD Experience and Its Aftermath

Table of Contents


  1. Introduction
  2. The Beginning of the Trip
  3. The Escalation of Delusions
    • 3.1 The Delusion of Control
    • 3.2 Fear of Being Trapped Outside of Reality
  4. Attempted Self-Soothing and Its Consequences
  5. The Hallucinations and the Vision of Death
    • 5.1 The Thousand Timelines
    • 5.2 The Intuitive Realization of My Existence
  6. Sensory Overload and Delusional Thoughts
    • 6.1 Sensation of My Body Being Consumed
    • 6.2 Fear of Becoming a Thought Alone
  7. Guilt and the Struggle with Reality
    • 7.1 Thoughts of Trapping My Roommates
    • 7.2 The Funeral Vision and Misunderstanding Their Laughter
  8. Physical Aggression and Distorted Perception of Time
    • 8.1 The Sense of Time Warping
  9. The Attempt to Calm Down
    • 9.1 Watching the Psych Visuals Video
    • 9.2 Emotional Numbness
  10. The Aftermath
    • 10.1 Struggling with Paranoia
    • 10.2 The Long-Term Effects on My Mental Health
  11. Reflection and Healing
    • 11.1 Avoiding Triggers
    • 11.2 The Importance of Support and Trust



1. Introduction


The following is an account of a deeply unsettling experience I had while using LSD, which led to a series of intense hallucinations, delusions, and a struggle with fear and disorientation. This experience affected me mentally and emotionally for months afterward, but eventually, I found myself on a path to recovery.


2. The Beginning of the Trip


At the onset of my LSD trip, I began to experience overwhelming feelings of confusion and fear. My perception of reality shifted, and I felt a sense of unreality wash over me. I started to yell for my roommate, apologizing and asking him what I should do. In that moment, I irrationally believed that he was like the operator of the game I found myself in, controlling the events of my trip. I also had the bizarre belief that my awareness of the situation was somehow affecting the fabric of reality. I thought that if I remained aware, I would become stuck outside of the simulated reality I was experiencing.


3. The Escalation of Delusions


3.1 The Delusion of Control


In my altered state, I started to feel as if I was trapped in some sort of game or simulation, with my roommate acting as the operator. My mind spun in chaotic loops, constantly overanalyzing my perceptions and fearing that my awareness was somehow altering the course of events.


3.2 Fear of Being Trapped Outside of Reality


The delusions deepened, and I began to think that if I remained aware of what was happening, I would be stuck outside of the simulation indefinitely. This led to intense anxiety, as I feared I would never be able to return to the normal reality I once knew.


4. Attempted Self-Soothing and Its Consequences


My roommate, seeing my distress, tried to calm me down by suggesting I smoke marijuana. Despite initially telling him that I didn’t want to smoke while on LSD, I felt like it was the only way to relieve my anxiety. However, this decision only worsened my state of mind. As I smoked, I began to believe that we were all trying to fill the room with gas in order to suffocate to death. I couldn’t communicate at all due to the overwhelming visions consuming me.


My behavior became more erratic, and they had to take keys away from me because I was attempting to cut my arm with them. At this point, the effects of the marijuana began to kick in, intensifying my hallucinations and sending my mind spiraling even further.


5. The Hallucinations and the Vision of Death


5.1 The Thousand Timelines


As the trip progressed, I started to perceive millions of different timelines branching out from my current reality. In each of these timelines, I met a slow and miserable death, all of which occurred within the same room. This was a terrifying vision that seemed to encapsulate the inevitability of my fate.


5.2 The Intuitive Realization of My Existence


In the midst of these chaotic thoughts, I had an intense realization that seemed to make sense at the time: I thought that I was the only one capable of experiencing these timelines because I alone encompassed them all. This, in my mind, made it undeniable that I had been born as myself, and it became an unshakable truth in that moment.


6. Sensory Overload and Delusional Thoughts


6.1 Sensation of My Body Being Consumed


I experienced an overwhelming sensation that my body was being consumed. While it wasn’t physically painful, I felt as if I was being eaten alive. The sensation was disorienting and continued for what felt like an eternity. In my delusional state, I believed that this process would last for billions of years.


6.2 Fear of Becoming a Thought Alone


My fear grew as I believed that if I allowed my body to move on its own for too long, my mind would lose control, and I would become a thought without a body, condemned to exist alone in an endless, timeless state. This fear gripped me, and once I became aware of it, I felt helpless to stop moving toward that inevitable outcome.


7. Guilt and the Struggle with Reality


7.1 Thoughts of Trapping My Roommates


At one point, I believed that I had somehow trapped my roommates in this altered reality with me, and I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt for doing so. I thought that they were stuck in this nightmare, forced to experience the same terror I was feeling.


7.2 The Funeral Vision and Misunderstanding Their Laughter


In my distorted state, I saw visions of my own funeral, believing that I was the first person to ever overdose on LSD. When I heard my roommates laughing, I misinterpreted it as cries of distress. I thought that they were suffering unbearably, unaware that they were actually laughing at the absurdity of the situation. I later learned that they had recorded parts of the night and I could hear their laughter clearly in the videos, which helped me realize they were not in the kind of pain I had imagined.


8. Physical Aggression and Distorted Perception of Time


8.1 The Sense of Time Warping


Eventually, I became agitated and aggressive, and one of my roommates had to help me sit back down. From there, my perception of time warped even further. I thought that they had aged decades in the time I had been experiencing my trip. Everything felt out of sync, and I could no longer make sense of the passing of time.


9. The Attempt to Calm Down


9.1 Watching the Psych Visuals Video


To help me calm down, my roommates brought me to the living room and suggested I watch an 8-hour-long YouTube video filled with psychotropic visuals. This was around 3 AM by this point. As I watched the video, I continued to feel my body being consumed by an invisible force, and I was convinced this sensation would never end.


9.2 Emotional Numbness


After a long period of time, I finally began to come to my senses, but emotionally I felt completely numb. It was as if the fear and the overwhelming experiences had drained me completely. Time felt distorted even as I began to return to a more grounded state.


10. The Aftermath


10.1 Struggling with Paranoia


For the next several months, I thought I had escaped the trauma of the trip, but in July, after smoking weed once again, I became paranoid that I was reliving the experience. I feared that what I had gone through was real, and that my life was a distraction from a deeper, ongoing experience of death and suffering in other timelines.


10.2 The Long-Term Effects on My Mental Health


The trauma from the trip lingered in my mind. I continued to battle with paranoia, and I couldn’t shake the fear that the trip might have been more than just a bad experience. For months, I felt disconnected from reality, unable to fully trust that the normal world around me was real.


11. Reflection and Healing


11.1 Avoiding Triggers


Over time, I began to heal, but certain environments or situations that reminded me of that night would still trigger anxiety. I realized that I should never have put myself in a situation where I felt so trapped and unprepared, especially with people who were not experienced in handling trips.


11.2 The Importance of Support and Trust


Looking back, I learned that having people around me who I trusted and who had experience with such situations could have made all the difference. If I had been in a more supportive environment with people who understood the potential dangers of LSD, the experience might have turned out very differently.