A Profound Journey: My Experience with 1.5 Grams of Psilocybe Cubensis
Table of Contents
- Introduction
- Detailed Experience
- 6:15 PM - The Come Up
- 7:00 PM - Noticing the Effects
- 7:30 PM - Heightened Sensations
- 7:55 PM - Visual Changes
- 8:10 PM - Intense Feelings
- 8:40 PM - Deep Reflection
- 8:50 PM - The Peak
- 8:55 PM - The Return
- 9:00 PM - Another Conclusion
- 9:30 PM - Steady Decline
- 10:00 PM - Relaxation
- 10:30 PM - Almost Done
- 11:30 PM - Goodnight
- 7:00 AM - Good Morning
- Conclusion
Introduction
On my journey with psilocybin mushrooms, I ingested 1.5 grams of Psilocybe cubensis. This experience turned out to be one of the most profound moments of my life, leading to intense self-reflection and a sense of connection with the universe. Below is a detailed account of the experience, outlining the timeline of events and sensations.
Detailed Experience
6:15 PM - The Come Up
To prepare for the onset of the experience, I decided to smoke some cannabis. I took a couple of hits from a bong, which helped calm my nerves and ease me into the journey. Following this, I took a leisurely 30-minute walk with a friend, whom I will refer to as "Z."
7:00 PM - Noticing the Effects
The effects of the psilocybin began to manifest subtly. While there were no major hallucinations or profound thoughts yet, I could feel a shift in my perception.
7:30 PM - Heightened Sensations
The sensations intensified, and I began to feel as if I were rising above myself. There was a sense of elevation, both physically and mentally.
7:55 PM - Visual Changes
At this point, the visuals began to emerge. My vision took on a tunneled effect, illuminated by a soft pink glow. I also started to perceive faint spirals at the edges of my vision. Feeling hungry from the cannabis, I grabbed my journal to jot down my thoughts while also snacking.
8:10 PM - Intense Feelings
As the spirals increased in frequency, I felt an overwhelming urge to articulate my emotions. However, writing became a challenge; the words appeared unusually large, making it difficult to express what I was feeling. There was a deep desire to frame my experience, despite the difficulty in doing so.
8:40 PM - Deep Reflection
The effects continued to escalate. I found myself in a state of critical self-evaluation, visualizing a grid in a void with green lines spanning across it. I started to distinguish various levels of consciousness: my everyday mind, the realization phase during the come up, and what felt like a state bordering on enlightenment. Interestingly, the left side of my face felt different, as if it were made from another material. This sensation was neutral; it simply existed without a positive or negative connotation.
8:50 PM - The Peak
At the peak of my experience, I felt a profound sense of enlightenment. My subconscious appeared to communicate with me as I listened to the track "DMT" by XXYYXX. Everything became crystal clear, and I realized that life is akin to a game. While I sensed I had not reached the absolute pinnacle of understanding, I was undoubtedly at a high point of clarity.
8:55 PM - The Return
As the enlightenment began to fade, I yearned to retain the memory of that state. I wrote furiously, yet paused to reflect on the futility of trying to explain my experience with words. Life suddenly seemed like a collection of comedic events, and I understood that my feelings were difficult to encapsulate in language.
9:00 PM - Another Conclusion
The state of enlightenment I had reached felt overwhelming, almost too much to process. Viewing life from that perspective was profoundly beautiful, leaving me in awe of existence.
9:30 PM - Steady Decline
As time passed, the visuals and intense thoughts began to diminish. I found myself focusing on how I had felt during the peak, yet I was slowly returning to a more grounded state of mind.
10:00 PM - Relaxation
By this time, I felt a wave of relaxation wash over me. I understood that verbalizing my experience would be challenging, but I was determined to try.
10:30 PM - Almost Done
My friends left about half an hour later. I prepared for the next day and lay down, feeling incredibly relaxed, though sleep eluded me. Instead, I simply enjoyed the moment.
11:30 PM - Goodnight
Eventually, I dozed off into a peaceful sleep.
7:00 AM - Good Morning
Upon waking, I was filled with a strong desire to share my experience. Interestingly, I noticed that I no longer craved cannabis. Initially, this concerned me, but I soon realized that the mushrooms had offered me an experience I had sought beyond what cannabis could provide. I felt no urge to get high in the near future.
As my day progressed, I remained reflective, experiencing a joyful disposition. It was as if I was rediscovering aspects of my life that had previously been clouded. Some desires that once held significance no longer appealed to me, and I felt a renewed bond with nature. I contemplated taking a walk in the woods after completing this post.
Conclusion
This experience with psilocybin mushrooms was transformative, providing me with a fresh perspective on life. I feel hopeful about the future, and I recognize that this journey has been one of the most significant events in my life.