A Detailed Personal Experience with Psychedelic Looping


Table of Contents


  • Introduction
  • Setting the Scene: Initial High and Trip Beginnings
    • The Effects of Cannabis on the Experience
    • Transitioning into the Psychedelic Mindset
  • Early Visual Effects: Closed-Eye and Open-Eye Hallucinations
    • Semi-Detailed Closed-Eye Visuals (CEVs)
    • Cubical Open-Eye Visuals (OEVs) on Blinds
    • Nature’s Flow: Watching the Trees in Harmony
  • Entering the Loop: Repetitive Actions and Mindset
    • Physical Loops: Repeating Daily Activities
    • The Mental Loop: Racing Thoughts and Confusion
    • Attempts to Break Free: The Unstoppable Cycle
  • The Loop Intensifies: Peak Experience and Ego Loss
    • Cyclic Thinking: The Struggle to Keep Track of Thoughts
    • Feelings of Déjà Vu and Confusion
    • Ego Loss: Losing Grip on Reality
  • Breaking the Loop: Social Interaction and Sobering Up
    • Friends Arrive: A Shift in the Experience
    • The Starbucks Break: A Turning Point in the Trip
    • Continued Distortions but Less Intense
  • The Come Down: Beach Trip and Return to Normality
    • Evening Activities: A Calming Transition
    • The Struggle to Sleep: Aftereffects of the Experience
  • Conclusion: Reflections on the Psychedelic Looping Experience



Introduction


Psychedelic experiences can vary wildly from person to person, and this detailed account captures a personal journey through a profound mind-altering experience marked by looping thoughts and repetitive actions. The combination of cannabis and a psychedelic substance led to an intense, cyclic experience that offers a glimpse into the nature of psychedelic "loops" and the confusion they can bring.



Setting the Scene: Initial High and Trip Beginnings


The Effects of Cannabis on the Experience


The experience began after consuming four bowls of cannabis, which provided a solid high for the individual. Despite having a moderate tolerance at the time, the amount was enough to induce a strong buzz, rated around 8/10. The individual was already in a psychedelic state when the cannabis was consumed, but the weed heightened the effects, setting the stage for a more intense trip.


Transitioning into the Psychedelic Mindset


After smoking, the individual returned inside, put everything away, and resumed their trip. At this point, the psychedelic mind state began to deepen, and the mind began to wander through altered perceptions and unusual visuals. This shift marked the beginning of the psychedelic journey, with music initially enhancing the experience before they decided to sit down and turn it off.



Early Visual Effects: Closed-Eye and Open-Eye Hallucinations


Semi-Detailed Closed-Eye Visuals (CEVs)


With eyes closed, the individual began to experience semi-detailed closed-eye visuals (CEVs). These visuals were not overly intense but were clear enough to be noticeable. This is a common effect of psychedelics, where the mind creates intricate patterns and images when the eyes are shut.


Cubical Open-Eye Visuals (OEVs) on Blinds


While gazing at the blinds of their window, strange open-eye visuals (OEVs) began to appear. The blinds, which were closed, seemed to have cubical shapes superimposed onto them. These cube-like visuals were transparent and remained stationary, resembling "floaters" but with a geometric, cubical form. This was a curious visual distortion, showing how everyday objects can appear altered under the influence of psychedelics.


Nature’s Flow: Watching the Trees in Harmony


Looking out the window, the trees outside provided another visually mesmerizing experience. Every leaf and branch moved in perfect unison, creating an awe-inspiring display of nature’s interconnectedness. The synchronization of the trees' movements amplified the sense of wonder and amazement.



Entering the Loop: Repetitive Actions and Mindset


Physical Loops: Repeating Daily Activities


As the trip progressed, the individual started to fall into repetitive physical loops. These loops involved performing the same actions over and over again, such as:


  • Walking downstairs, then around the house, and back upstairs.
  • Refilling a water bottle, only to realize it was still full.
  • Other random but repetitive actions that weren’t too extreme.


At this point, the experience was still manageable, though the repetitive nature of these actions hinted at the deeper mental loop that was about to unfold.


The Mental Loop: Racing Thoughts and Confusion


Along with the physical loops, the individual began to experience a much more intense mental loop. Their thoughts started to race uncontrollably, with one thought leading to another, and so on, until they would lose track and try to retrace their steps mentally. The mind would cycle back to the original thought, but it was difficult to recall it clearly. This racing of thoughts is often characteristic of a psychedelic mind state, especially when the brain struggles to keep up with the rapid changes in perception.


Attempts to Break Free: The Unstoppable Cycle


Despite being fully aware of the loop, there was no way to stop it. The individual recognized they were stuck in this cycle, but nothing could be done to break free. The situation felt increasingly out of control, yet they remained in a safe setting at home, which provided some comfort. Nonetheless, the looping became more severe, making it impossible to focus or handle anything else.



The Loop Intensifies: Peak Experience and Ego Loss


Cyclic Thinking: The Struggle to Keep Track of Thoughts


As the loop continued, the mind raced faster and faster. It became increasingly difficult to keep track of thoughts, and the process of trying to return to the original thought became more complex and confusing. This cyclic thinking resembled a mental spiral, with each loop becoming more disorienting and challenging to manage.


Feelings of Déjà Vu and Confusion


Accompanying the mental loop were strong sensations of déjà vu. The individual felt like they had experienced the exact moment multiple times before, intensifying the sense of confusion. The repetitive nature of the loops, combined with this déjà vu, created a surreal and disorienting atmosphere.


Ego Loss: Losing Grip on Reality


At the peak of this experience, the individual experienced a potential ego-loss—a common phenomenon during intense psychedelic trips. This is a state where the sense of self begins to dissolve, and the individual loses their usual sense of identity. The inability to control the loop and the intense mental confusion contributed to this feeling of ego dissolution.



Breaking the Loop: Social Interaction and Sobering Up


Friends Arrive: A Shift in the Experience


Eventually, friends arrived, and their presence marked a shift in the experience. Although the individual was still deeply entrenched in the loop, the arrival of other people helped to break the intensity of the cycle, introducing new stimuli that slightly disrupted the pattern.


The Starbucks Break: A Turning Point in the Trip


The group decided to go to Starbucks, which seemed to help the individual break out of the loop more significantly. While still experiencing mild looping, it was nowhere near as extreme as it had been earlier. The shift in environment and social interaction likely contributed to the decrease in intensity, allowing the individual to regain some sense of control over the experience.


Continued Distortions but Less Intense


Although the trip was not over, the intense mental looping had subsided. Visual distortions continued, but they were more manageable, and the individual was no longer trapped in the overwhelming cycle of thoughts and actions.



The Come Down: Beach Trip and Return to Normality


Evening Activities: A Calming Transition


After Starbucks, the group went to get food, though the individual did not feel the need to eat. They then visited the beach, which provided a calming and grounding end to the day. This part of the experience was much less chaotic, as the psychedelic effects began to wear off, and the individual slowly returned to normality.


The Struggle to Sleep: Aftereffects of the Experience


After returning home, the individual struggled to fall asleep, spending about an hour trying to calm down enough to rest. Eventually, they were able to sleep, marking the end of the intense psychedelic journey.



Conclusion: Reflections on the Psychedelic Looping Experience


This personal account provides a detailed look into the disorienting and confusing nature of psychedelic looping. The experience highlights the challenges of managing racing thoughts, repetitive actions, and feelings of ego-loss during a peak psychedelic state. Despite the overwhelming nature of the loop, the individual's safe environment and the presence of friends helped them navigate the trip, eventually leading to a gradual comedown and return to normality.