A Deep Dive into 2C-B: Hallucinatory Journey and Personal Insights


Table of Contents


  • Introduction
  • Initial Effects (8:00 PM - 9:00 PM)
  • Meditation and Visual Hallucinations
  • Spiritual Insights and Fear of Losing Control
  • Cognitive and Sensory Shifts with Music Videos
    • The Galaxy Song
    • What Fills the Gap
  • Alan Watts' Wisdom and the Nature of Existence
  • Conclusion



Introduction


This article presents a detailed personal account of a profound 2C-B experience. The author recounts the shifting sensory perceptions, emotional depth, and spiritual realizations encountered during the trip. Hallucinogenic substances, such as 2C-B, often lead to a blending of the subjective and objective worlds, and in this case, the experience of time, space, and self becomes fluid, allowing for new insights into existence, identity, and the universe.



Initial Effects (8:00 PM - 9:00 PM)


At the outset of the experience, I began to emerge from a hallucinatory state at T+1:06, engaging in conversation with my girlfriend, Josikins. The effects of 2C-B were still present, and I continued to feel the aftereffects of the psychedelic state. At T+1:20, we decided to begin mantra meditation, a practice I had engaged in before, but the drug enhanced its effects.



Meditation and Visual Hallucinations


During meditation, I encountered vivid visual distortions. The walls around me seemed to breathe, shifting in and out, while colors would periodically alter, creating a surreal atmosphere. Abstract geometric patterns filled my vision, often featuring symbolic elements like eyes and mushrooms. These symbols repeated in symmetrical designs, further deepening the trip’s intensity.


Externally, I experienced a particularly striking hallucination: psychedelic mushrooms appeared on Josikins’ shirt, evoking the impression that she was a shaman guiding me on my spiritual journey. As the meditation continued, my connection to the universe deepened. The notion that everything in existence could be viewed through a lens of contrast or opposition became evident. Duality—light and dark, positive and negative—felt like the fundamental nature of the universe.



Spiritual Insights and Fear of Losing Control


As the meditation intensified, I felt increasingly connected to a profound sense of meaning in the universe. However, this feeling also led to an overwhelming realization: the deeper I went, the closer I came to the edge of my own mind, and I feared that I might never return. The sensation of existential threat became apparent. The fear of dying, or at least of being lost in this mental and emotional state forever, overtook me. At T+1:30, feeling disoriented, I requested a pause in the meditation, explaining to Josikins that I was feeling “deep” and needed to step back. The intensity of the experience had started to overwhelm me.



Cognitive and Sensory Shifts with Music Videos


After taking a moment to regain some composure, I asked Josikins for suggestions on what to do next during the trip. She offered several options, including snorting more MDMA, listening to music, or discussing a traumatic event that had impacted me. I decided to opt for listening to music, and requested something that would resonate with the cosmic themes I was experiencing. Josikins linked me to the Galaxy Song from Monty Python’s The Meaning of Life, available on YouTube.


The Galaxy Song


As I watched the Galaxy Song music video, my perception of the screen began to warp. Depth perception distortions took over, with objects and actors in the background appearing to shift forward while those in the foreground seemed to move into the back. The layers of the video were mixed up, creating a sense of disorientation. This led to a sensation of being inside the music video itself, rather than merely observing it.


The song itself, with its cosmic themes, struck a deep chord within me. I felt connected not just to the video, but to the people involved in its creation. There was an overwhelming sense that I had somehow orchestrated the lives of these individuals, that they existed specifically for this moment. It became clear to me, in a deeply personal way, that the singer was addressing me directly. The blurring of identities continued: the singer felt like both Josikins and myself, as if we were all interconnected.



What Fills the Gap


After the Galaxy Song ended, I requested another music video. This time, Josikins played What Fills the Gap by Will Cady featuring Alan Watts. As the video played, I once again felt immersed in the visuals. The video began with a sweeping shot of the Earth, and as it transitioned to microscopic images of bacteria and cells, my sense of self expanded. I felt as though I was one with everything in the video—Earth, bacteria, humans, and even the creators of the airplane featured in the footage.


When the video portrayed destruction—airplanes and houses exploding—it resonated with me on a personal level. The lyrics "time will pass and reduce to ash your bones" felt hauntingly true, and I began to feel responsible for the destruction unfolding on screen. The feeling of having been responsible for mass death, even in some metaphorical sense, swept over me. I felt connected to the atomic bomb, to past lives, and to every instance of suffering in the universe. This realization felt "beyond perfect" in its tragic, infinite completeness.



Alan Watts' Wisdom and the Nature of Existence


In the video, Alan Watts spoke words that echoed in my mind long after the video had ended: "We haven’t realized that life and death, black and white, good and evil, being and non-being come from the same sentience. They imply each other. What you are basically, deep deep down, far far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself."


These words took on a new meaning during my trip. I understood them not just as philosophical musings, but as profound truths about the nature of existence. Life, death, and every duality in between were no longer separate concepts but part of a single, interwoven reality. On a deep, intrinsic level, I felt that I was part of the very fabric of existence itself, a structure far beyond the boundaries of time and space.



Conclusion


The 2C-B trip proved to be a journey into profound self-awareness, spiritual insight, and emotional revelation. The interplay between sensory distortion, meditation, music, and philosophical teachings reshaped my understanding of the universe and my place within it. Although moments of fear and overwhelming emotion threatened to destabilize the experience, they also led to moments of profound clarity. In the end, I felt an undeniable connection to all things, a sense of unity with the cosmos and the very structure of existence.