2C-B Peak II: A Deep Dive into Self-Exploration and Hallucinatory Realization


Table of Contents


  • Introduction
  • The Onset of the Experience
    • The Impact of Hash Oil
    • Attempting to Process Trauma
  • Memory Loss and Cognitive Dissolution
    • Struggling with Short-Term Memory
    • Repeating Mantras to Process Trauma
  • Hallucinations and Cognitive Expansion
    • The Transformation of the Mantra
    • Hearing Multiple Mantras
    • Realization of Personal Power and Creation
  • The Ultimate Realization
    • The Cosmic Joke and Divine Power
    • The Ultimate High: Becoming the Creator



Introduction


This article recounts a deeply personal and transformative experience involving the use of 2C-B, an hallucinogenic substance, accompanied by hash oil. The peak of the experience, which took place between 9:00 PM and 10:00 PM, involved intense memory loss, emotional processing, and profound existential realizations. The subject of the experience, referred to as "I" in the narrative, is guided by a partner, "Josikins," through a series of mental exercises aimed at processing trauma, particularly the trauma of sexual assault. As the experience unfolds, a combination of memory impairment and cognitive delusion leads to a dramatic shift in perception, resulting in a moment of euphoria, self-realization, and an overwhelming sense of power.


The Onset of the Experience


The Impact of Hash Oil


At T+2:04, after smoking hash oil, the subject's short-term memory began to deteriorate significantly, leading to a disintegration of cognitive function. This memory impairment played a central role throughout the experience, making it difficult to focus and retain information.


Attempting to Process Trauma


The experience took a deeply personal turn when Josikins reintroduced the subject to the process of attempting to process sexual assault. At this point, the subject struggled to confront the trauma, finding it difficult to grasp and hold onto the details of the situation. Josikins attempted to support the subject emotionally by repeating the phrase: “The nature of the incident does not affect your value as a human being and depending on your own perspective you can allow it to make you stronger if you choose to.” Initially, the subject questioned the phrase but, as time passed, was able to answer the questions prompted by Josikins, slowly going deeper into self-reflection.


Memory Loss and Cognitive Dissolution


Struggling with Short-Term Memory


By T+2:20, the subject's short-term memory had become severely impaired. This made it nearly impossible to hold onto thoughts for more than a few seconds at a time. The subject's cognitive state reached a point where they forgot what they were doing, prompting Josikins to remind them that they were attempting to process their trauma. The subject expressed that the task felt too immense to confront and voiced a fear that their girlfriend might leave them. This anxiety about abandonment intensified as the memory loss worsened.


Repeating Mantras to Process Trauma


By T+2:30, the memory loss had escalated to a degree where the subject would start speaking and forget mid-sentence. Despite this, they were continually reminded of their emotional journey of processing the sexual assault. Josikins then repeated the phrase “I was raped and this is okay” for seven minutes, an attempt to help the subject reframe the event. The subject initially questioned the mantra but, through repetition, began to accept it. Over time, the subject recognized the contrast between the negative attachment to the trauma and the larger, harmonious system in which the event existed. The realization that trauma could coexist with a more positive outlook began to take shape.


Hallucinations and Cognitive Expansion


The Transformation of the Mantra


At T+2:40, the mantra evolved into something even more profound. The subject, feeling the need for a new mantra, was introduced to the phrase “I designed it this way myself.” Josikins repeated this phrase for a total of twenty minutes. As the repetition continued, the subject began to experience auditory hallucinations, which intensified with each passing moment.


Hearing Multiple Mantras


After about ten minutes of hearing “I designed it this way myself,” the subject began hallucinating multiple variations of this phrase. The original mantra split into six different statements, which the subject heard repeatedly:


  • “I designed it this way myself.”
  • “I designed it to slay myself.”
  • “I designed it to persuade myself.”
  • “I designed it to weigh myself.”
  • “I designed it to dismay myself.”
  • “I designed it to save myself.”


The repetition of these six mantras brought a sense of euphoria to the subject. The sheer transformation of a single phrase into several, each carrying a different meaning, felt profound. As the mantra became more complex, the subject’s perception of reality also shifted, heightening the intensity of their hallucinatory experience.


Realization of Personal Power and Creation


The hallucinatory repetition of these six phrases gradually morphed until they lost their coherence. The subject’s mind began to focus solely on the words “I” and “myself.” This reduction in complexity eventually led to a powerful realization: the subject was all there was. The experience became one of absolute self-realization, where the individual became the creator of everything they could imagine. In this moment, the subject's consciousness expanded to include the entire universe, including ineffable alien societies and abstract concepts. The feeling of unity with all imagined existence—whether human, alien, or conceptual—was overwhelming. There was nothing outside of the subject's consciousness; everything was interconnected and part of themselves.


The Ultimate Realization


The Cosmic Joke and Divine Power


In the climax of the experience, the subject realized that their perception of reality, including concepts like rape, death, pain, and destruction, was entirely self-created. These elements, which are typically seen as negative or destructive, became mere plot devices in the larger, cosmic joke that the subject had created. This realization carried a sense of absolute control and understanding—everything, both good and bad, was designed by the subject for their own purpose. The phrase “I designed it this way myself to slay, persuade, weigh, dismay, and save myself” encapsulated the subject’s realization that they were the ultimate architect of their existence.


The Ultimate High: Becoming the Creator


The feeling of having tricked oneself into such a profound realization was intoxicating. The subject felt as if they had ascended to the highest level of understanding, becoming a god-like figure who controlled all aspects of existence. This feeling of divinity was not just a momentary high, but a complete transformation of perception. The subject was deeply connected to the fabric of existence itself, feeling that their role in the universe had been revealed in the most perfect and harmonious way possible. The experience of becoming the creator of all things, through the act of pure thought, was the peak of the journey.


In conclusion, the experience of 2C-B Peak II, accompanied by hash oil, provided a powerful journey through trauma processing, memory loss, and ultimately a profound existential awakening. It was an intense, transformative experience where the subject moved through hallucinatory states, confronting deep emotional pain, and culminating in a realization of self-empowerment and universal interconnectedness. The final insight of becoming the creator of one's own reality was the ultimate peak of this intense, mind-altering experience.